buggers
hello.
it has been one helluva week man. i'm dying and panting and wheezing and koffing coughing and whatever shit. i fell asleep at 11.40 last night, leaving my com on, my project file on and my stats poster file on. my father just told me he didnt save anything when he turned it off. gggggggg. anyway i think i only slept an avg of 4+ hours these past few days, and hence i promise to sleep early later. even though i'm meeting ben and zhihao tmr noon at national library again. slim didnt call ben luckily. and we didnt see him today so there wasnt any need to run at all. phew
went to training just now. damn interesting at the bus stop when me and kev went home. at the bus stop, the poloers came, and seannie sat on the seat and was lamenting about the fact that he has to shave next year (yes). and all of a sudden out of the blue…
A LIZARD FELL ON HIS HEAD.
LOL x 1897589718597891749587189
HE SCREAMED AND JUMPED UP HAHAHAHHAHA.
the scene was damn bloody funny.
anyway, waited for 67 for more than half an hour. wanted to catch pig on our bus but so damn unfortunately stanley ng called kev when we were at bt panjang already and told him that pig was on the bus with him!!! and the bus was the next bus or two after us! what a pity ): i only saw the acs guy i see on 67 every morning.
today morning started out really bad. overslept on the bus and got off at the college side. and obviously i dont look like a colleger so those who share the same bus as me every morning got to see the kind of interesting shows i like when ppl miss their stops. (:
and i repeat, today morning went so wrong. was in the toilet with ben and hazel. i should have known better to enter toilets with these 2 at the same time. always sure got sth happen one. so well we saw a big bee or hornet or beetle or some big flying insect on the cubicle. and it was like half dead or sth cos it wasnt flying and was very lazy. anyway, ben held it by the wings and walked near me in the corner. and knowing i have a vehvehvehvehveh strong phobia of large flying insects, he purposely did it. omfg so i screamed. screamed like i was being poked with 69 knives, rolled over by 69 cars, tickled 69 hours, whatever you wish. 4 times in a row, and long emo screams they were.
all of a sudden, the thing was crawling on the floor and hazel was gonna pick it up. i was sure he was gonna fling it at me or sth, so i immediately raised my foot and crushed the poor thing. sorry sorry to the thing if it can see and to all animal and insect lovers. trust me, i love life. anyway, as soon as i stepped on it, there was a distinct silence suddenly and who should walk in but tanpt our vice principal. godddddd, i was so damn stunned. he asked me zhuo shen me. then i lifted my foot and pointed at the carcass. then he went aiyoh aiyoh and just said bu yao pa zhe zhong xiao dong xi la. and bla bla bla. hazel told me hon was just outside the toilet and heard my 10000000-decibel screams. and he was rather pissed. luckily tanpt wasnt angry. told benpoh that tanpt wanted to see him, but he didnt believe the not-so-convincing tale i think.)))))):
moving away from bugs and lizards, yesterday's assembly was rather interesting. no i'm not talking about 4o's exceptional performance, but rather the subject combinations for jc that was revealed to us by some college teacher. i wanna take psychology and sociology or maybe philosophy in uni, so i think i'll choose lit ki china studies in english (what an irony), maybe history or econs. plus maths for h1. notice theres no science… I HATE SCIENCE YAY NO MORE OF IT. song.
ah, long post. intended to do some work tonight but i'm rather sleepy already. maybe i'll type a bit more of our project stuff and i'll turn in. byebye!
plaza sing
ah i just got home an hour ago from plaza sing with chai and nick oh. bathed, drank soup, ate snickers and now i’m sitting in front of the computer again, working myself to insanity.
i think mars tastes much better than snickers cos its much too sweet and has none of that caramel you find on mars.
slim wants us to show him our project prelims stuff tmr… HOW? essay, ppt, webby. essay alone will take days. but we can’t push anymore, its been dragged for more than a week already. and i bet he’s gonna murder us if we can’t give it to him tmr. ah worse come to worst we’ll just run away from him tmr. and ben should just prolly turn his phone off lest he calls him. or divert to his gf j***
AND. to add on to that we still have maths stats poster!!!!!! goodness this is wonderful man.
and hrp i’m submitting my draft on monday. hope i can complete it over the weekend. but it looks extremely impossible.
i just remembered that the sch library books i borrowed for research is overdue for about 3 weeks already. gg i have 6 books in total.
and who doesnt know whats a phallus.
working hard
nabei. i’ve been working like a toilet bowl since sunday, thus the lack of posts. this is crap. i’m rushing like mad but i still can’t come close to the amount of stuff i need to do and the number of deadlines i need to fulfil. and no surprise, most of this work comes from slim.
lessons nowadays are so boring i can fall asleep anytime, with the exception of bio. even practical was not that boring today, all because of him (: too bad no early dismissal today. geog pretty much sucked, given that xiaochun likes to humiliate me a lot a lot. besides im beginning to run out of comebacks to his breastfeeding jokes aimed at knocking me down my knees. gee i really hate him sometimes.
and bloody hell i skipped training again today to continue with my work. i promise myself this shant happen again. try la try la. slept for 1+ hour just now… was so damn tired cos i’m not getting enough sleep. the workload is crazy la.
now i’ve got a running nose and i’m still feeling sleepy. and theres a history essay and maths statistics poster, as well as maths, bio and chem to complete. god, save me.
ofra haza
this is funny. i just went to myheritage.com and matched my face with the celebrity database. and guess what? i got this ofra haza with my first try.
she died in 2000, btw.
okay so today’s post will be centered around this woman here. no offence (:
her profile from wikipedia here goes.
Ofra Haza (עָפְרָה חָזָה born November 19, 1957, died February 23, 2000) was a popular Israeli singer, actress and international recording artist of Yemenite Jewish ancestry.
Born the youngest of nine children in the poor Tel Aviv suburb of Hatikvah, she became an instant local and then national success story, the subject of great pride for many Israelis of Yemenite origin.
Her voice has been described as mezzo-soprano, of near-flawless tonal quality, capable of lending itself to a variety of musical styles with apparent ease. It is thought likely that Haza’s voice had the most upper harmonic overtones of any singer in history, reaching as many as 32 on some songs, such as “Love Song” from the album Shaday (1988).
Inspired by a love of her Yemenite-Jewish culture, the appeal of her musical art quickly spread to a wider Middle Eastern audience, somehow bridging the divide between Israel and the Arab countries. As her career progressed, the multi-lingual Haza was able to switch between traditional and more commercial singing styles without jeopardising her credibility. The music, too, cleverly fused elements of Eastern and Western instrumentation, orchestration and dance-beat. Success was to follow in Europe and the Americas; during her singing career, she collected many platinum and gold discs.
ahhh.
for my 2nd pic, i finally concluded that this thing is totally stupid.
look what i got.
first an israeli singer, then a korean singer.
thanks man, both women somemore.
anyway, here’s her profile.
Lee Young-Ae (born January 31, 1971) is a Korean actress that has a great fan base in Korea, China, Hong Kong, Taiwan, Japan, Malaysia and numerous other Asian countries, particularly Eastern Asia countries which have been hit by the Korean Wave. She is best known by the sobriquets ‘Oxygen Lady’ and ‘Asia Sweetheart’ due to her cherubic beauty.
Her popularity amongst Eastern Asia countries grew in an exponential manner due to her poignant performance in the popular korean drama Dae Jang Geum. The drama was such a success that several countries including Malaysia and China had re-runs of the drama shortly after the last episode ended. In Hong Kong, according to television viewing statistics, the last episode of Dae Jang Geum had almost half of the Hong Kong population stayed at home just to watch it.
In 2005, she was awarded Best Actress award in the Blue Dragon Film Festival.
In 2006, she signed a two-year contract with LG Electronics, a Korean electronic products company, to be the spokesmodel (Pan-Asia) for all LG Electronics’ products. Under this contract, she would go on a promotional tour around Asia countries including, but not limited to China, Hong Kong, Taiwan, Japan, Malaysia, Singapore and Indonesia.
this post is crap. i’ve no more time left i gotta go finish the work for this weekend. and screw it i’ve been homeworking the whole day already.
gogogo
changed choice
i have just changed my 2nd choice to perth and 3rd to cairnes.
but i still hope i get my 1st, duh.
eh, but i just noticed cairnes is stated to be in august.
i dont wanna go for camps in term 3…
so how.
ups and downs
perspective.
i think this word means a lot. you could lead a happy or a sad life depending on how you view the situation. badminton, cca, leaps. this could be my cause for not getting hp scholarships or even taking normal hp at college. its a very cruel thing, this c6 of mine. this, however hard i try, i can’t see any bright side. best thing to do? get a good sleep and try not to think about things. or at the least, just totally ignore it. its extremely hard, but it’s possible. if we get stuck in any stage of life so easily, it’s not gonna work out in the end. i think we should still overlook this problem and concentrate to the best of our abilities on the big picture. though the biggest problem itself might be a gone cause already, but maybe we should try. for me, i think the most important thing is pride, and how others look at me. thats why even if i fail i still have a strong need to prove myself.
i dunno, but i really hope leaps wont be computed into the subject grades at the end of the year. or else i can say byebye to a decent path in life already. this will probably affect everything…. a damn heavy baggage in my heart.
four years are already wasted.
truth is, i feel like crying whenever i think about it. bloody thing can’t get off my mind at all. doesn’t help that i click on benjamin on the left there 8457894719 times a day. it isn’t only for the points. i recall the feeling experienced for the past 3 plus years, disappointment, sadness, uselessness and much much more, its really saddening.
and screw the teachers when all they can do is give more more more work.
i can’t imagine what else can go wrong at this point in time.
ah i probably wont wanna know.
knnbcccb, i hate school.
Part 2 badminton
omg i just made my annual camp choice. first choice: CHIANG MAI, THAILAND. good job, jack just told me all the thailand ppl striking outside singapore embassy and they all hate singaporeans. don’t care la. its still 1.5 mths away and hopefully the riotings would have died down by then. anyway i don’t mind if i get killed there at least i’ll have friends for company (:
and my 2nd choice is hainan followed by perth for 3rd choice. i was trying to choose cheaper ones but they all look quite boring. so chiang mai will be good, followed by the 2 above.
anybody who wants to go chiang mai as well, please leave comments thanks thanks (((:
so far branden says yes.
but daryl just told me that the chiangmai trip will be boring cos he had been there before… but the itenary really looks good leh. how??? if i’m not wrong hainan and perth are both the most popular choices around. so i dunno. maybe if the right ppl are going for some other ones i might consider them. for now, i’ll just try to convince hazel and gang to go chiangmai. nvm, i only need ONE good friend to be 100% resolute in this choice.
well today was rather interesting in spite of training. bio was really damn damn damn fun. the 20 yr old replacement teacher was damn humorous.
“uh, wednesday is practical?*raise both hands* yay good then i dont have to teach!!!”
“since this is the last period, i shall dismiss yall 5 minutes earlier.”
“blah blah blah and pls take down that picture *points at cheeyang’s pic at the back* hes gay…”
and a hundred thousand other stuff i can’t rmb.
what he’s doing presently is not teaching anyway, its reading off slides. i bet i can present better than him, with preparation of course (: phucking physics wasnt much better cos MR STEVIE WONDER STILL CANT BLOODY TEACH. omg, ask that guy to go work in a circus pls. instead of concept explanations i find myself listening to adventure stories of sorts… i can’t rmb. was it sth about life of a stupid socket or wire or sth. but i do commend him for his ingenuity. pity it seems to be pretty pointless in my learning of physics.
went to run with kev doug and david during trng today. not much, only one round around the school… estimated 1km only? don’t care la, we don’t even get proper trng now anyway. (yet must still bear with the coach who doesnt know my name and lousy shuttles, all for a grand total of 50 bucks knnbccb!)
nonetheless, it isn’t all that bad when i convince myself to stop harping on that issue. even though i see no positive sides to this, i realise i shouldn’t fall just like that. yes true i might not keep going for training, and i’m not gonna put in much more effort in training the day i still remain in high school. a good chat with daryl reveals that i should probably try to prove myself. i told him i have no opportunities when the “rich gets richer, the poor gets poorer”. thats the main problem from sec 1 until now it seems to me. i have no idea how many ppl actually look down on me now. probably the whole badminton team i guess. and what can i do? maintain a winning streak during stroking sessions, and go home feeling proud? i have deproved a lot due to missing so many trainings. but i’m pretty confident that my potential hasn’t been stretched. my own fault i guess. shit i’m rambling on again.
conclusion is: i want everybody to feel that they have made a wrong judgement, and save me one last pint of dignity before i leave this school. even though i’d probably spend the whole of my remaining high school life stroking by the side courts, i WILL improve. this is to be achieved not by training harder, but by just going for trainings. i’ll not give myself this extra pressure, this extra burden. whats done is done; no use crying over spilt milk. anyway, theres not much time left in high sch anyway. in college i’ll take a look. if theres a high chance of being back in the team and a good coach who doesnt despise me, i think i’ll join it again, prove every single team member wrong and maybe even get better than them. high hopes, but theres a large chance of futility, cos i’m just worried that i’ll remain at this sec 2 standard forever. yes i havnt improved much since sec 2, that i am conscious of. its not that i’m not interested in badminton, but this whole circumstance really puts me off absolutely, causing all my motivations to be burst bubbles.
too bad we can’t dump the whole team into another jc and introduce a new batch of players. i badly want a new beginning, where everybody doesn’t know me and i can prove myself once more. but for now i’ll just try to improve. though at this rate i’m going, imma say hello to the mother of success.
whatever everybody says, i just can’t get the motivation at this moment.
how?
ps.
honestly i’m really quite touched to see that my previous post meant sth to quite a few ppl already… thanks everyone ((:
knnbccb leaps
my biggest regret in hwachong is not training harder. no, it might be even joining badminton. felt so damn agonised when leaps was shown to us again. 6 points knn. can i go jump off the building or sth. the main problem, of course, is cca.
i wanted to make this post private and confidential for fear of opinions that i’m trying to gain sympathy or worse, make myself look better. but i don’t care la. not many ppl will see this anyway i hope. but well.
the truth is, after not making it into the team in sec 2, i gave up. the main motivation to train was like, gone instantly. that is why until today, i still think badminton is pretty much a screwed thing in our sch. in sec one, 18 of us were taken in. not that many at first, but they came one by one. no diff. might be their improvement rate, but initially i thought i would have no trouble getting into the team in sec 2. after all, i can still rmb in sec one we were asked to play against quite a few pairs, and we did win a few. i thought that the 11 that would be in the team the following year wouldbe a no problemo thing for me.
anyway in sec two i dunno what really went wrong. sec one, i think i trained one of the hardest. sec two, started slacking a bit, but was still rather hardworking. however, when the list of players came out, it was…. i dont know what to say. i rmb i took the pang for more than 3 months before settling down. after that, i told myself to work harder, ppl tell me to work harder. but i’ve always had this feeling of half-heartedness. ah shucks what went wrong? what i truly feel is that i was better than a few in the team already, but i simply didn’t have – either not given or not taken i dont know – the opportunity to prove myself. coach doesn’t like me; thats the feeling i get.anger, disappointment.. i dont WANT to work harder.
i see my level mates one by one leaving the school for tournaments and competitions, and i feel embarrassed. when the team went down in front of the school to receive the medals, naturally my face turned red. at that moment i just wished i could straightaway die off from the surface of the earth. i tried not to care, of course, but it really bothered me that i was a bloody failure. or worse still, NOT a bloody failure but not standing down there shining with the light of honour.
at the end of sec3, i received a piece of encouragement talk and was quite ready to take on the challenge of pushing myself into the sec 4 b div. halfway through, this best friend of mine didnt wanna train, so i forced myself to choose between the two, and i chose my best friend. concurrently, the holidays training that would have made my stepping into the team much easier, was mistakenly conveyed to me as for sch players only. and this misunderstanding continued until close to dec, where i decided to give up already. (cos it’ll be so damn embarrassing to face the rest after not being present for half the hols) and i thought that so many ppl will have a better chance.
little did i know that in the end, only 5 sec 4s players were in the team. sec 3s occupied the majority… the rest of the sec 4s didnt bother at all, just like me. if i have known that i have such a large chance of being back if i had bothered to train, i would certainly have tried my hardest. besides, already so many ppl looked down on me; how could i not have seized the chance to prove myself?
now, i can’t do anything. png just posted an emb to say that he wants to see us tmr and our excuse letters for not turning up for trainings and to support during the tournament. fuck, as if our burden of not being in the team is not enough, as if our cca and leaps points are as low as fuck, now he wants us to go support the team and highlight the fact that we are so. the fact that none of us are turning up means that we have all given up on this whole affair already; why does he still want to make life difficult for us?
these four years, two of which spent training so hard. how has it paid off? 3 fucking leaps points over 4 years, all for attendance only. 509157419054890 thousand dollars, all for a coach that sits there and asks us to do bunny hops and lunges. okay i dont care how he trains us, but at least be fair? come on, he doesnt even know my name now.
every single time i go for training, i feel the humiliation and ostracising. in fact, its grown on me until im starting to feel numb to it already.
there’re a hundred thousand million flaws in this piece of crap, so after reading please just shut up. its my heartfelt opinions and i’m not shoving it down anybodys throat.i know its not nigel’s fault, neither is it with most ppl. i kept quiet all this while because i know its my own. now just let me rant on. i would really like to think that i’m not that weak after all, but im beginning to suspect that its more than just sheer unfortunate events that took place.
and as a side comment, leaps is a scrwed thing and if its counted as one subject at the end of the yr, i think i’ll probably just quit hci and screw off to somewhere else. read ben poh for all the details regarding problems with the system of leaps and cca. dont wanna ramble on.
ben and i got 2nd for vip, but i dont think any of us really feel the happiness. think theres no point in all this already, when 1/11 of our grades, or at least mine, is gonna be a d7 or c6.
leaps, leaps. HOW?
and png, go jump down a building pls.
this is damn horrible i have absolutely 0% motivation to even work in my studies because of this shit. in a world where how i perform for my cca affects my academic grade and in the near future, scholarships and postings, HOW THE HELL AM I GONNA CARRY ON?????????
one wrong decision in life can screw you down the drain.
how true is that.
edit: here is my letter of apology. this is screwed but i’m prepared to get screwed anyway. so don’t care, hope i sound stupid enough.
here goes:
To the teacher(s)-in-charge, badminton,
I am Sim Chun from 4G. I am dreadfully sorry and apologetic for not turning up for recent training sessions and to support the team in the recent tournaments. To clarify, I did turn up for trainings earlier in the term, but when the competition period arrived, I busied myself with the project I’m working on. This is because I thought that the training facilities should be utilized fully by the team members during their trainings, and it will not be nice to use up the courts for their serious trainings. I realized that for this short competition period I should make full use of it for my project, and not idling away in the hall which will be constructively used. That is why I definitely will go back to training soon. Regarding not going to support the team, I am also exceptionally regretful and guilty. However, lessons usually end late and it is inconvenient to travel to the different destinations to support the team which will normally dominate the west zone anyway. My project also takes up a lot of time, and whatever spare time that I have to offer, I need it for academic pursuits such as studies. Believe me, I really wish in my heart that the team will triumph in the competition. I also think that in terms of priorities, academic interests should come first, especially when we are already not in the team, and has lost a source of motivation.
In conclusion, I , without a doubt, condemn and abhor this act of irresponsibility and laziness for this whole term. I know this is actually a wrong attitude and mentality and I will definitely reflect about it and start making up for it by coming for future trainings. Hopefully, on account that my past record has always been rather positive, you might consider giving me a chance. I rightly assure you that I am still hundred-percent passionate in this interesting and enriching activity.
Thank you very much,
Sim Chun, 4G29
BOTAK
i swear nobody has a life as interesting as mine. i should probably add that nothing is as interesting as watching hair getting shaved off your friends’ head. and that is why i promised myself that no matter how much work i have today (which is a lot), i must still log in the most fun day ever since this year started.
today after sch at around 2, daryl ben chai and me went to united square. reason? to satisfy the weird urge of jijo to cut his hair botak. reached there at 3 with the monkey jumping in excitement, but we went pizza hut to have our lunch first. in the sch, on the bus, during lunch, everywhere, ben was in fits trying to decide. jijo was egging him on. but anyway, they went to jean yip academy to shave.
i took 42 pictures in total. and uploaded to my com most of them. unfortunately my phone chooses today to be cranky and hence all the pics are 5 kb and smaller than the msn popup thing. DAMN SAD CAN. but i don’t care i shall just post all that i can.
before everything; beside the pool
this is the only pic in the whole collection thats bigger. sad.
on the bus; distressed monkey.
this nut wants to know how he looks like with an empty forehead
boy is he nervous
one is damn nervous; the other is plain excited.
LOOK AT THE BIG GRIN ON DARYL’S FACE (and the fhm)
in action (:
cut
shave!!!
lololol
awwww somebody’s feeling sad already.
lol
almost
lol this guy has gone crazy already.
spastic
it disturbs me that he was so super happy throughout the whole process
touch touch
!
lol
done
end of the day
compare and contrast
so now benjamin wants me to buy him a beanie. alternatively he can use a plastic bag. but i really want to buy them wigs if i have the cash. damn fun la. to me, the main advantage of being botak is that you can wear wigs ((((: so fun right???
thats all. wasted 1 whole hour on this whole business. no, plus the 4 hrs i accompanied them to give them moral support (:
ok thats all.
cya!
true words
i like to blog. for me, blogging is either a narration of the day’s events, or a piece of heartfelt words and sentiments. actually i would have very much liked to keep boring narrations to myself, and just use this platform for all my thoughts and intellectual (lol) discussions. but then as you might have noticed, most of my posts are about school and school and work and work. i would like to think that i’m hardworking, but i’m not. but then, part of the reason i’m not generating more interesting and serious posts is because i’m lazy and can’t really be bothered to gather my 100% effort on stuff that might be found in my formal and graded essays one fine day. second, i think this blog is super messy. founded in dec o4, it has just been a record of my daily happenings, for fear that i might forget the milestones in my life another fine day. from time to time, i click on every single month in the archives and just read and reread what happened so long (?) ago. and maybe laugh or cry over it. ah not cry but well, feel the pain (:
and that is why i like to read kennysia and xiaxue and chaiyi(???). cos they blog about issues instead of boring narrations like my own. though to a certain extent a narration or two gives readers the sense that the blogger is real. if that makes sense.
and that is why if i have time i might change my template to show the headings for each and every post and do what i’ve always been tempted to do.
due to rumours about jeffery’s big haul tmr, i let ben and hazel and chai cut the ends of my hair right in front of coro after lunch and mochi(: quite funny, until we suddenly found jeff staring at us from 10 metres away. omg, all of us were stunned and kept the scissors. but i think he saw us in action, though he kept quiet. to make it worse, my mother said the cut was awful and she has just helped me trim it. i think its quite short now. god, wasted my money the other day. for fringe i’ll just wear a hairband or sth 
i think this is quite a productive post because it contains events and issues. but still, its super messy with random topics everyday and no titles above. jay, all your fault ):
jk, just joking.
