I’ve tried.
So, congrats to all the newly elected facheads, especially bryan and jinyang. i think you 2 did a great job today. as for me it would be a lie to say i’m not extremely shattered and angsty and sore. i prefer to think that i came close to getting it, but the cold hard truth is i didnt.
it sucks to have pinned all my hopes on the post, knowing very well i might not get it. and i thought i would be prepared if i fail, but i wasnt. i feel far from strong. but like what mr teh said i guess time would ease the heartache.
right now, i only hope i’ve made an impact on everyone in the auditorium. maybe i’m really not suited for the job, maybe i really don’t deserve it. but in any case, bryan and jinyang are good, so i don’t regret running at all. the only regret i have is not being calm enough to be coherent, especially at the start.
still, i hope ppl found me funny, even if i wasnt good enough on the whole.
i’m not running for anything else anymore. i’ve told stanley i want iic so now it’s up to him.
and lastly thanks every single one of you who wrote the little slips of encouragement. i’m in no mood to list everyone, sorry, but i really appreciate it a lot.
anyway, congrats again b & j! do ares proud((:
NERVES
by now i thought i wouldnt be this hyped up with going up on stage and answering questions spontaneously already. but man am i fretting over tmr. hot favourites are jinyang and buan so i really need to do my best. hmm, i really want to just be natural and confident tmr, and not blank out like i did a couple of times during general elections. they said the most important thing is sincerity, so i’ll still stick to being natural and all. what i’m really worried about is that everyone will start thinking i’m not serious again. which always always happens to me, probably my own fault, haha. yeah believe me, i really do try.
these days i’ve been pondering a lot about friendships and all. and stuff friend(s) say do affect, or even hurt me a lot at times. during the informal interview with the Ares ECs today they asked me to tell them a few things about myself and i just blabbered about how emotional i tend to get and all. afterwards i realised probably i shouldn’t have cause it sorta gives away how affected i can get. but i just said confiding in friends make me much better and all, which is rather true. so thanks ppl who are sharable you know who you are ((:
i keep wondering whether council changes people, my friends and whether i myself would be subjected to these changes in the process. but i guess if i stay true to myself and true to everyone around me nothing will go wrong (: i just dont think i’ll regret running for council, snr chair as well as fac head tmr.
but still, i do hope i will get it.
vote for me((((:
Congrats
to Stanley for SnR chair, Sirui for Welco chair and Jared for Ecaco chair!
and yesterday’s results: Shimin and Kangjie for GS, Biqi for GT!
and rewind rewind: Claire for P and Shiwei for VP(:
ok i ran for SnR chair but i din get it.
along with 7 other ppl
but oh well
i’m not really sad or what, haha.
just that i thought i could have given better answers.
ah, lousy nerves.
anyway, i thought i did my best so ok la, no regrets.
besides i wanna be fac head more (:
the problem is, i think jinyang and buan stand a higher chance,
not to mention the other candidates like qs xiu weiting yiming
so i really can’t screw up FacHead elections this friday.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,
stress.
bennerd you better end up as apollo fachead.
with or without me getting ares fh.
so i wont feel guilty for telling the few around me to not vote for you as welco chair 
okay i’m very tired now but i wanna thank the 33rd and 34th councillors who sent encouragement letters during the session. genesis yeekai jianyang liwei theodore kahleng shiwei erik shimin jiannan xiu and ying and the couple of anons.
hahah. shit i’m giving up on homework. especially history sigh
I just wrote my Council angel a letter
and i’m feeling emo now.
ah, jaychou.
and i effing havent done a single shit this whole weekend other than the ffs reunion and slacking slacking and more slacking.
sucks shit.
Nick Oh:
You’re one of the strongest persons i’ve known, though i don’t know you that well despite being your classmate for 2 years. Like i said just now, continue being strong and all of us friends are here for you(:
On a sidenote, i read a certain person’s blog entry on dramafeste, and like yuxuan slash ryan, i really miss it a lot– the cast, the crew, the countless rehearsals. It’s really a pity we didn’t win best play.
Life sucks, but it also has much to offer. i’m still running for fac head despite numerous drawbacks.
Maths test results of some of the people i know (out of 35):
myself – 13
yuxuan – 13
calvin – 12
qinsheng – 11
sean – 9
daryl – 8
dijie – 6
kaishan – 5
eujin – 4
jackson – 3
tobias – 2 (hahaha)
wah i top the list leh.
haha i wonder how people like jesslyn and xuerong can get 32 marks, or even yiyuan and ahgirl’s 18. though like more than half the cohort passed quite well. if we perform like that for our blocks in july i wonder what ang will say haha.
it’s quite sad to see the rumours and badmouthing going on so early in the term in council, even if it’s mostly by the student body. hopefully it’ll be a one-off. and hope that wont come about during fac head elections, sigh.
okay everyone cheer up. let’s all look forward to fac outing(:
and edit:
Go a13 blog to look at qs’s new post. i think it’s funny. along with big butt girl (inside joke)
I will run for fac head
thats if i dont get SnR chair.
been thinking about fac head for damn damn long.
and the challenges and responsibilities that will come with it.
but i dont wanna regret anything after i graduate.
and wish that i have done more while i was inside
so i’ll be going for it now.
but anyway it will be tough, since a lot of powderful ppl are gonna run for the position too like jinyang bryan maybe qs and the girls and etc etc i forgot.
nvm la, i wont die if i dont get it(:
backtrack to this morning–
woke up this morning and saw the watch screaming 7.25
and i contorted in horror at the fact that council presidential internal elections is at 8 and one of the most important things they stressed in council was punctuality.
so i rushed and rushed and my mum woke my dad up so i reached the LT miraculously at 8 sharp.
big sigh of relief please.
even though there were still people later than me, but whatever, i’m glad to have been on time.
and why? cos last night i was lying around in bed and i fell asleep.
so i didnt set the alarm and all.
ahhh shucks.
okay i seriously need to arouse the mugger side of me.
i know i can work hard if i want to
and my academics had started to suck like shit since upper sec.
ahhhh.
maths lecture test on mon and i still dont know more than half the topics covered so far.
i’m just praying for something more than a U this time.
i’ll chiong all the way tmr.
on a sidenote, happy belated birthday to yiyuan (and tracee, if wanna backtrack!
and happy birthday to kelly!
and an early happy birthday to linghuan, chai, olivia(:
and a lot of other ppl cos if i dont remember wrongly a lot of ppl have birthdays in april.
i need to say now cos i dont blog a lot anymore
and speaking of which my blog views are dropping like crazy.
but the most saddening thing is that i’m caring less and less.
ah well, school life.
More on school life:
yuxuan eating in class
calvin sleeping
and more sleeping
yiyuan sleeping
lol
calvin and qs sleeping
qs sleeping
qs and yuxuan sleeping
and every friday a13 will walk past the classroom a10 has lessons. and thru the backdoor we’ll see the above– jackson ong sleeping
yiming and xuanyi sharing an intimate moment
the campaigning days, sigh.
kelly’s phone…
qs likes it. (and notice vote(red) )
qs’s newfound hobby
on the menu somewhere
lol
and grand finale…………….
YUXUAN who looks like an african starved-for-7-days kid.
CYAAAA!
Not going to Africa
I give up. nothing goes into my parents. i give up trying to talk to them. im dead tired of shouting to air.
Sick again
my immune system sucks, through and through.
i have a camp tmr somemore, rar.
till sunday.
so i guess there wont be a chance to finish my work again, sigh.
went home early today.
intended to go for stj
but felt like shit so i didnt.
went to the docs just now.
fever nausea and all the crap.
ah. brain jam.
byebye.
Thanks everyone
yay i got in.
to those who didnt, dont despair luh
all of us did ourselves proud up there(((:
though i felt my q&a was kinda screwed up.
but ya la, thank goodness and thank you everyone who supported vote(red)
and to xiu,linghuan and qs,
you ppl are the bestest campaign grp ever ya.
been feeling like shit lately.
sadness, anger, all the angst for friends and for myself rolled into one.
various reasons.
very annoying.
but i shouldnt complain yeah.
though i dont even know where to start.
i’ll work hard on council
ps HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRACEE YOU”RE 18 OMGGG
