JAYDABEST

It would be very hard to write what i really wanna say without certain discrimination to the people close to me so i should just shut up.

But nvm, for today i’m really appreciative towards you. i think you’re a true and sensitive friend, so i’m very happy. and thats not just cos of today; its all in the light of recent happenings, no matter how small or insignificant they seem. its kinda hard to put how i feel into words. (plus the fact that i feel totally gay writing this kinda stuff about a GUY) but i’m thankful. and to you, i don’t really blame you i guess. it’s only a matter of time before this sort of things might have happened, though i don’t know why i lost control. but well, still fine la(: it’s just what you said, and my reaction. ah well

went for differentiation remedial today. learned lots of stuff i thought i already knew. haha. i think our maths tutor is very very nice. hope whats covered today would take me through tmr. i’ll be satisfied with a pass.

and i made new specs just now, to replace the old one which broke into two. quite costly for something i wouldn’t use much since i wear contacts almost all the time i’m out. but aiyah it’s gonna last me a long time so it’s probably worth it in the end la.

ares night emceeing is still as stress-inducing as ever. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

because of thingsssss.

mrs ang is no longer angry with us and thats a very very very lovely thing! went for td formal today so frightful of what was to come (so were the rest), but it turned out to be totally uncalled for. she was funny and quite nice, and even went so far as to offer quite a few suggestions that were pretty fresh. so all in all, PHEW.

my specs broke yesterday. now i’m wearing my sec 1 one. i think i look like harry potter haha.

ares night emceeing is churning out quite a few headaches. we have like 1 or 2 more days to prepare the full script. no choice, we’re counting on tobias to spice up the night with hopefully lots of impromptus. ahhh jiayou brudder and sistaaaaaaa!

ok i think i should study history test now. it’s tmr and i hvn started. (h>h hahahaha)

ALRIGHT GOODNIGHT ALL PLEASE DO COME FOR ARES NIGHT THIS FRI 6 PM LT3!!!

i cannot go watch jaychou tmr cos i have TD informal at 5.15!!!! and if it lasts for one hour plus it’ll end at 6 plus. and the thing supposedly starts at 6. but they say jaychou will come at 7 or sth. maybe theres a chance i’ll go have a look after that sigh. but there’ll be so many ppl anyway it’ll be so hard to even catch a glimpse of him so rahhhhhhhhhhh. whatever lah.

his movie is coming out real soon i wonder if i can catch the premiere i think cannot. aiyah aiyah. nvm, i’ll just bear with the urge a bit longer.

the prospect of mrs. ang being at TD informal tmr is quite scary. i mean, i’m all prepared to be lectured yet another time but still it’s very unnerving to imagine it. and i really want some private time with ms sophie to apologise. i’m sure it’s the same for junshy justin and jiali. i mean, she’s damn poor thing la aiyah it’s so totally not her fault. crap.

haha CT on fri was very funny. i keep picturing mr ang reading this blog. luckily theres nothing i would ever need to hide from any authority. i think.

aiyahhhhhhhhhhhh.

i’m very unproductive i spent 2 full days at home doing nothing but rolling around and blog-hopping and all the shit. worse, my eom draft is not with me so i can’t hand in by tmr. not that i would be able to finish it, in any case.

nvm i’ll go chill and think about other stuff now
kthxbye

Today marked one of the worst days i’ve had in college.

What else but the announcement shit. As if it wasn’t enough that the entire school stoned at our feeble attempts at being funny, we got screwed by the bigshots. hard.

so our announcement took too long, made us look like clowns, made fun of cs which wasn’t  exactly politically correct and so on. “what can be worse” hah.

for the whole of today morning i really wished i could disappear from the surface of the earth and die. i wanted a bloody mask to hide my screwed up arse. thank god for calvin’s -.- attempts at cheering me up. made me considerably cheerful till after school where i saw the TD comm again. then everything from the morning resurfaced and it was seriously demoralising beyond hope.

i’ve to make an announcement for flower sales in about 2 weeks plus. and the emceeing for ares night? hell. confidence, please come back to me.

utter humiliation.

today i found out my mother reads my blog, and my sister’s.

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mmm so today was the wildly anticipated half day. was good, cos our break’s from 10 to 11 so we officially only attended maths lesson. had so many appointments- class lunch, MORNING ANNOUNCEMENT and jijo’s harrypotter. but it’s so stupid cos somehow in the end i went for class lunch much later than the rest, got back to sch and stayed in council room trying to discuss the bloody TD announcement with junshyang and jiali. anyway, as expected, NO RESULTS. and we just camped there until 4. wth. was considering meeting up with jijo and gang but felt so sian i came home.

rarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. i surprise myself at how much i always WANT to do, but never been able to. motivation, guts? ah. its a recurring thing, ah.

i just read some of my archives again and its really really a damn fun thing to do. to look at how much i’ve grown and matured. and i realised, sadly, that i havent changed that much the past year, as compared to the past few years where everything about my posts change and change. oh well. no more puberty and growing taller, how tragic.

i have so much work to do, but i dont know where to start. guess i’ll plunge in now. as usual this post is just an excuse to myself that i’m making good use of time blah i’m not making sense now so
GOOD BYE

RAH i am so sick of not posting anything so i’m back.

just reached home from ff sendoff dinner for qs at madjack. after the dinner went to islandcreamery for mudpie and yuxuan and qs started getting racist about it. and they were just behind us lol wtf. anyway, it was damn fun and i absolutely love chilling out with them. makes me laugh like shit.

the past few weeks have been rather uneventful. nothing much worth noting down i guess. errrr training on fri wasn’t exactly fun, but quite nice to hold a racket and move on the courts again. scraped my knee during pe on the same day, playing netball. went for judo cheering after lit lecture and it was okay at the beginning, boring in the middle and kinda exciting at the end. i’m growing to be able to stand cheering(: it’s always a matter of how you look at it i guess. came back and had mass dance session for less than half an hour before going for training. afterwards went for dinner with some of the council ppl. and a few of us somehow said we were gonna watch harrypotter at lot 1????? kns, we didn’t in the end cos everyone got off at their stops and poor little junshy ahahahahaha was stuck at lot 1 with me. okay guarantee wont happen next time. though quite fun what.

do look out for the next issue of moch in october it’ll be mine and ngehwee’s virgin attempt at doing moch. we just sent the contents for approval a few days ago, mmm. and also look out for me i’ll be aa-ing a few times on morning announcement soon. one for teachers day and one for moch and one for flowers a few weeks later. so fun.

started reading deathly hallows ytd afternoon and finished it about 11 hours later, around 1.30 am. its very exciting i think. haha such a pity no more harry potter for the world. and no one can spoil me now, yay.

i dont know what to say now. so many things on my mind yet nothing that can actually be formed into words. at least not here.

okay byebye.

3 cheers to ffs (:

kns i attempted to use PAINT to put myself in the pictures but it looked like crap so just imagine me inside lah.

Well well. i intended to dedicate an entire post to rambling about my falling sick and all, but now i can’t be bothered. that’s the worst thing about procrastinating a blogpost. yeah from the week before this tues i was having the time of my life with headaches and puke urges. looking back at my past meds i realised that i’d fallen sick for probably the 4th or 5th time this year already; why??? i’ve never felt any fitter than this year, but i guess napfa results and all has no bearings on how healthy you are i guess. i think i’m just a bag of germs.

Council work has been boring and tiring. just the simplest of saigang jobs can get me so tired and frustrated that i end up losing my patience and dump everything aside. bloody cock, sometimes i get so tired of school life. and just one week ago i was missing school life so terribly. nabei. the grass of the other side of the meadow is indeed always sweeter.

speaking of one week ago. i was lying on my bed feeling so bloody weak, and i was so damn thirsty but couldn’t eat or drink no shit cos i knew i’d just throw up everything. for 2-3 days i ate nearly nothing, and became considerably thinner. near recovery period, when my fever had more or less subsided, the stomach acid burned up my throat and it was so painful controlling puke. yes, the most trying part of this bout of sickness has to be controlling puke when i felt like i could give a limb just to let out the stuff inside. and in my mind i was totally fantasising about cold drinks; the exact drinks at our canteen stall, and gulping them down. i actually pictured all the scenarios in my mind, ever so sweetly. to me then it was 897589371598 better than any orgasmic-like thing in the world.

ahhhhh. and so now back in school i have my cough back, but i don’t give a damn. i’m stomachflu-less now, so i’m drinking all the cold stuff i want but the past few days i’ve been fighting a lot with my mum over the need for all the extra chinese meds. but now i can’t be bothered to argue. whatever la.

tmr’s CMS, and the screening of the videos to the j1s. hahahahahaha too bad tmr no one can get to enjoy 3 consecutive video of me. such a waste, they should just show prom video to j1s.

oh, got back a couple of papers. results are as horrible as expected. U for maths and econs probably. in fact maths i set a class record low of 26%. but i’m not the lowest among my goooood friends! hahahaha. in fact i have so much good company. hazel got 19, ben and jackson got 18, jijo got 23. and hazel calculated that the 5 of us make a sum of merely 104. hahaha, give ourselves a pat on the back!

history and lit weren’t too well, but i didn’t fail so i’m not complaining. but i really need to do better for promos. and to think i wanted to take lit h3 at the start of this year, sigh. fffffffs.

aiyah life is so boring.

i really need a direction):

“这首歌是电影不能说的秘密的主题曲，叫不能说的秘密…”

LOL.

okay, i’ve been replaying the song on itunes (the full version. it’s out already) non-stop for god knows how long. the more i listen the nicer it gets. can’t wait for the movie yayyyyyyy. and harry potter, though more so the book than the movie. mid-end july please come quickly):

on second thought, maybe not. these few days, since after blocks, have been really a whirlwind. and i’m damn busy, cause of council-meet-students session on like 2 weeks later? and we have to present the events to the students, including videos to publicise them. andddddddd i’m filming for prom and teachers day video, hahahaha. like movie star sia, not bad. and td informal, pubco informal etc

furthermore, tmr is youth day, and i have to go back to sch the whole day for formal as well as the two respective filmings. and hence I WILL BE MISSING CLASS OUTING AT SENTOSA WTF. which is very very sad. but i think filming is quite fun la, so i’m not complaining (:

it’s just that these couple of weeks schedule would be very tight): and mingte just asked me to join their kbox session tmrrrr. and i can’t go again sigh, what with all the above, plus council jts and pubco jts and present making and ??awardsday rehearsal?? no i’m not getting an award, just that all councillors are involved -.- lol i’m daoing the due holiday homework, at least for the moment. i need a break.

but come to think of it, the past 2 days i’ve had as much fun as i had being tied down to work. pooled at zhixiang’s house which is like a mansion after lit paper on fri, with daryl and the a10 guys. and yesterday after prom filming went to pool with buanbryan, jinyang and tengseng. and after dinner we went cs -.- it’s been a while since i played sigh. bryan owned. reached home at 11 and slept at 1. the only thing i need now is probably just a day of stoning at home and resting. i feel shagged.

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uh i’m kinda screwed for blocks. lets see.

econs was the only subject i studied damn damn hard for, since i dont know most of the stuff taught in the past 6 months. and believe me, i really studied hard! but once the invigilator said stop writing with the conclusion of case study paper, i knew that i was screwed big time. damn stupid, lost track of time and spent 45 mins on a 5 mark question and left the 12 mark question blank as well as the middle questions adding up to like more than 10 marks??? so the highest i can get is probably like 8 or 9 marks. ggggggggg. luckily the essay was alright. hope that it would get me a pass for econs overall ))))):

SEA history and GP: both i felt good. only i ran out of time for everything and didn’t finish the way i wanted to. but i studied very hard for SEA history so i pray it’ll get me a C or so.

Maths: LOL. i don’t have anything to say. 34 percent is the maximum i can get.

Intl history was screwed. Badly behind time and only wrote 2 paras for the 2nd question. bloody choices for that question were hard, at least for me. i’ll pray for a pass so i can get a D overall for history.

Lit i was rather behind time also. Took half an hour to plan for poetry, which hopefully i would be able to score. for the rest of the paper which make up like 2/3 the marks i smoked my way through. plus i wrote damn little. in short, lit is quite screwed as well. just praying for like a D or E now.

in short, the blocks this time was bad. not that i didn’t expect maths to turn out like that. but wth, econs was damn wasted. history also. i had so bloody much to write, but ran super out of time and ended up writing damn little.

how ah how ah how. worse still it’s not the first time this is happening. almost like every test/exam in fact. but still, i need to confess that i didn’t study much this blocks lol. except for econs and 1/6 maths, the rest i started mugging like 9 pm the night before, to 2 am. luckily the contents for history and lit are manageable this time round, so it’s not really that taxing. maths, to tell the truth, i already gave up beforehand. that’s why i only did one topic and stopped to chiong on econs again. sooooooooooooooo. for promos i need to work harder )))))))))))))))):

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went to see the doc again just now for seven-month-old-cough and he gave me new meds again again. sian ji bua, i hate feeling even slightly sick. takes the fun out of everything. i wanna get well again so i can drink cold stuff; i’ve been alternating between HOT coffee and tea whenever i’m outside, and even though i like them, it’s seriously quite dulan to wait damn long for them to cool a bit before i can touch them. and i like cold drinks more in these days’ hot weather. coffee and tea only suit my mood when i’m at home on a rainy afternoon. great stuff for analysis, this is.

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RAHHHHHHH. it feels so good typing out a long entry. been feeeling constipated (not literally) so it rocks to splatter out everything here.

i think i have more to say, but as usual i can’t remember.

will update with pics sometime, i think the posts are too wordy.

(i feel like joining the national translation competition thing, sounds interesting.)

gee.

bye!