JAYDABEST

SECRET SOUNDTRACKS MAKE ME WANNA CRY BOO :’(

Haha i’m very happy i saw many pokemon books in kinokuniya yesterday.
though they’re kinda expensive for my liking
and i ordered the Secret OST in HMV.
supposed to arrive on the Monday of Sept holidays.
hopefully it’ll still be the limited edition sigh):

so yes i went to order flowers at GGGGGGGGG Flowers yesterday morning.
with eddie my fellow flowers ic and ying the artistic tasteful one.
was rather productive (pronounced po-dog-tive)
but the guy was uneducated and he probably failed maths big time just like me.
so i’m calling him again tmr to clear things up.
anyway, spent the afternoon chilling out with ying.
was quite fun and we talked about a hell lot of stuff.
i like her a lot in the platonic way, just like how we like woankeng,
though not “in that sense” for her, if you get what i mean.
tsk woankeng!!!

wah this will be another very very busy week too owing to MOCH and TD and PW
and plain everyday homework
AND TESTS.
goodness.

fell asleep on the bus just now and walked home from lot 1.
actually i kinda like the 7 mins or so walk.
at night its usually quiet and cooling and gives a very serene feel.

got back lit assignment/test today.
was extremely disappointing;
i expected myself to do well):
in fact thinking back upon this year’s lit essays,
i’ve always felt very strongly that i deserved much higher marks.
my opinions have never changed.
what the teachers comment do make sense.
but it doesn’t justify my marks i feel.
but on a better note, i did well for GP essay.
first time this year that i got a mark above 30 for essay.
i am finally able to be proud of myself,
cause i feel so useless these days.

i like weiguo a lot.
he’s a very understanding comm chair.
he doesn’t behave like the boss he’s supposed to be
but i still respect him a lot for his responsibility and niceness and everything.
he’s a very understanding comm chair.

i’m learning to come to terms with not liking people.
i’m not one to pick fights, so i’m still very peaceful with lots of people.
but don’t look at me if we drift further and further apart,
or i totally stop telling you stuff.
it’s part of my plan to be happy(:

the chair was already like in a wholly pathetic state so i don’t feel guilty doing it.
though i would very much like to do it to every single table in the school (:

AYE PPL WHO HAVEN’T WATCHED GO WATCH LEH.

i think i have a serious problem with anger management.
but i still don’t think i was wrong.
don’t try convincing me, my sense of pride is way too high up.

no stamina to write about anything tonight i’m way too drained emotionally.
i hate fighting with my mum.

aiyah f la everything’s coming together to break me down.
thank goodness for some other ppl in life.
though one’s in vietnam now.

it’s virtually impossible that i’d get upset over song and dance tests, but i did. i don’t know why it’s so damn screwed. okay apart from the fact that dance theres no one in front for me to follow, which wasn’t even disclosed to us. fine, i can’t complain since it’s actually my own fault for not memorising the steps. but i wish everyone could have been more understanding. songs is shit too. my mouth moved on its own though i told it what to do beforehand. fact is, lyrics can go suck balls for all i care aioejioafa. nvm JUST IGNORE ME i feel very lousy rah. i don’t give a shit about remedial but i hate embarrassment and humiliation and swallowing my pride and kukubird la.

slept for half an hour or so in the council room after welfare duty overtime. my brains are getting more and more barbecued every single day. and every few minutes or so a vision of my bed invade my brains. it sucks not having very close friends to talk to throughout the day. i seriously miss having calvin around in class, gay as it sounds. he’s practically irreplaceable. not that the council ppl aren’t very good friends or what. it’s just….. different i guess. and on certain days ppl like xiu and ying and woankeng and kheexuan and junshyang and more make me feel happy. but i guess sometimes its just weird.

tmr is the seniors’ last day in school for quite some time. i really love the senior class just for being who they are. angel and mortal are the very very best, the best i can ever find . as well as all the seniors who bothered to talk to us. yeekai, jianyang, jonathan, GAN, kenny, and a lot a lot more, in fact almost everyone. though there are like one or two ppl i still don’t know existed in 06a13, hahaha. Okay good luck for your ‘A’s i think all of you are smart people and it won’t be a problem i bet!

tonight’s weather is so awfully beautifully sublime (sorry jackson). anyway, the rain’s a soothing agent to my tattered and confused mind, ah. and it goes in perfect sync with jaychou.
okay i’m really spending too much time just typing these few paragraphs. a precious half hour has since elapsed.

goodbye!

is damn important!
i learned it the hard way today sigh.
slept at 3.30 last night.
was the latest time i’ve stayed up in quite a long time.
doing what i said i’d do the previous post
moch and history ):

i predicted that nothing good would come out of sleeping like less than 2 hours, and true enough, this morning was plain disaster. woke up feeling all groggy and woke up again half an hour later. luckily i packed my bag last night, with the exception of my formal uniform. so i took out everything but my tie which i couldn’t find. and i got damn pissed at my grandma and my mum and just kept semi-shouting at them and felt like crap. like total pms. wanted to punch my neighbour in the lift and the tall guy who stood beside me on the bus. swore and swore to myself. basically, it was only until i started talking to kevin on the bus that i stopped feeling lousy(:

but at least i got some sleep back today. real, almost quality sleep. during td informals today. after i presented my stuff i just unfolded the audi table and zzzzzzzz. when i woke up it was almost 2 hours later! and that took place like when the rest were discussing about TD i think. i don’t know what happened ah. and in classes i slept a bit here and there. like half of maths tutorial and all. but mr tan is so imba nice he just lets the very tired us sleep on so its good cos when i wake up for the second half of the tutorial i will be more energetic and pay more attention(: speaking of maths i got 6/35. 5 marks for question 1 and 1 mark for qn 2. calvin got 6 marks too haha you loooser.

calvin’s going away to vietnam tmr for his basketball thing, for 10 days. wah sian one source of entertainment in class gone.

okay i shall exercise more self-control now and go chiong more more stuff and sleep before 12.30 tonight. rahhhhhhhhhhh. i’m looking forward to the weekends.

My internet is now officially out-of-order so i’m using my sister’s laptop. Ah screw.

I’m very very very very busy now, because i need to finish moch and history essay by tonight. supposed to have finished eom already, but i’m a lousy procrastinator so i’m not really intending to get it done by tonight. TD’s been rather busy despite what it seems. As well as all the random homework that i feel i need to do, like teh’s history. i wish i hadn’t studied for maths. no difference anyway sighzzzzzzzz ): i’m gonna get an overall 1% out of that 8. 3 cheers for last minute work.

i screwed up bad this morning. asked all the ct reps this morning to meet me under the bridge after morning assembly (not “under morning assembly”). cos i wanted to tell them to order flowers as a class for every single teacher so that more ppl would order so as to save us a whole lot of trouble. but there were so many ppl that i didn’t know how to begin so i ran into council room to get the loudhailer but the batteries were not in it so wasted a whole bloody lot of time. and they rushed me like mad so i ran out and wtf only like half the ct reps were left. so i shouted my msg across and they left. so knnbccbingly few classes would order more than like a single digit purchase now. i’m screwing up everything i’m doing right now. thanks stanley for helping out with the td board. in fact he did so much in comparison i did like near zilch.

and i learned today that a lot of ppl are really really nice, despite the things they do at times. i guess everything’s for a reason, though i don’t agree with a lot of things they do. so i’ll try very hard to not be so easily ticked at the little insensitivities of ppl at times, and look at the bigger picture instead.

alright i’m gonna CHIONG now wish me luck

i spent the past few hours doing maths but i’ve only finished like 1 question consisting of 6 parts. and its like the most basic of integration and all the shittttt. i don’t know how i’m gonna pass the lecture test rah. anyway, it’s an achievement cos it’s prolly the first time i did maths homework this year, with the exception of tutorial 1a and block test preparation (within 1 day). haha.

i’m pissed because my internet keeps disconnecting and reconnecting. like ever since i got router it’s been like that and it was just something annoying at first but now it’s pissing the piss out of me. i hate dc-ing halfway through a convo. damn anti-climax.

this week has also been a tired week for me. maybe its the lack of sleep last weekend. cos i always use my weekends to rest more and recharge for the impending week.  but everyday this week i felt that i’ve run 100 rounds around singapore or something. once i reach home i can’t even survive a bit of work. twice or thrice this week i’ve fallen asleep with my com on, without my teeth brushed. and in the mornings i fall asleep with food in my mouth. and on the bus. and in lessons. in short, everywhere.

and i just realised why i find it so hard to answer personality tests now. it’s like when they ask for how i’ll respond to stuff, i would take very long to decide, cause my actions vary 180 degrees according to my mood. i am a damn extreme person i tell you.

and i think i am a very stubborn boy.

was very good!

went in half expecting it to be very good, half afraid that i’d be disappointed. but it was needless, for it turned out to be a brilliant combination of fantasy, romance, action and more. just read a few reviews and they were all very positive (even the review from a gay site)(found thru search engine)! i thought the first part was kinda boring after awhile, but the second half of the movie turned out to be rather thrilling. lots of suspense and twists. you really have to give credit to him for his originality and creativity! don’t ask for the secret before you watch the movie or else it won’t be nice already. just go in and enjoy it’s really (Y)(Y). insert heart shape here. the thing is, it’s good la, just go watch. the above isn’t (ji) biased or anything, haha(:

jaychou’s a talent through and through.

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felt extremely pmsy yesterday due to a myriad of reasons. sometimes i really do begrudge council for a lot of things. the average councillor is nice la. and there are a few i treat as very good friends, and like a lot. but then it’s kinda hard to describe. for a lot of ppl i guess work counts more than friendship. sometimes ppl behave with the sensitivity of a pinhead. so sometimes i just wanna get out of the shithole i’m in. urgh.

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now i’m in a state of severe depression, because my mom took my spoilt phone to be serviced and all the data’s erased. i don’t care about most of it, but i had a lot of messages saved inside and they’re really precious to me. and i read and reread them very very often. especially the encouragement msgs during dramafeste and council elections, the birthday wishes, and others. i don’t know why i like to be a sentimental nut over stuff that’s all over, sigh. i just know i like to reminisce a lot.

rahhhhhhhhhh. i wanna watch secret again and erase the lethargy and pms away from me. geeeeeeeeeee

IS DAMN STRESSFUL.

this was my first real try at emceeing an event, and i honestly didn’t expect the pressure and issues that came along with it.

i think last night was quite a flop in terms of our overall presentation. okay maybe we can be redeemed by the fact that the script was written a day before the event, and that we’ve had no proper rehearsal prior to it. but i thought we could have done a better job at filling the gaps in between the performances and games sigh. at some points when i was on stage my mind was a total blank la. but to be fair i guess chuanhan’s the mannnnn he saved our skins when we needed to waste time. and yiming for getting to the point at times and saving us potential embarrassment. though i wish we could have gave the jokes we didn’t attempt a shot anyway. and for doing so much of the script on thurs.

the turnout was horrible. ares ah ares what’s happening? prolly only 2/3 of lt3 was filled, and 1/3 of the 2/3 wasn’t even from ares.

anywayyyy. thanks everyone who said we did well, or were funny. though i don’t think we were any of that at times, i guess we did try our best. and that’s all matters perhaps good job chuanhan, good job yiming! (and good job myself hahhahahaha)

though i’ll think twice before attempting any emceeing jobs again, haha.

the highlight of yesterday also included running around underwearless for more than half the day. after pe lesson calvin wanted to go bathe and since i didn’t wanna go all sticky for ares night i decided to bathe too. bought artemis towel and used bball soap. but didn’t realise i had no underwear to change into. luckily the inside of the hwachong pants is smooth enough to not give me/it a lot of trouble. but i also came to the realisation that i had to change into jeans to emcee ares night. so i freaked out and asked everyone i knew for underwear. so pingkan and jinyang both kindly bought disposables and CROCODILE respectively for me. so now i have a lot of briefs. hahahahaha i think it’s very amusing.

anyway, citygate is tough on the palms and the arms (beeeeg beeeg biceps!) (rhyme plus alliteration ) but it’s exciting, it’s fun and it’s some distorted kind of training i guess. haha speaking of which i’m now not an official member of badminton because of <80% attendance but i’ll still train if i can (:

ares council+faccomm outing tmr yay cya bb!