just your average handsome boy next door

I’m a Recluse

Because this is about the 20th day this holidays I’m spending the entire day in my room alone and I actually enjoy it. Y’know, chilling. Reading, playing tetris. Listening to music. 9gag. Coffee and snacks. Sleep. Alone time. I love the peace, the restlessness that comes from having nothing to do, nothing I have to do, to accomplish. It must be the whole getting old thing. Hah. Hard to imagine myself growing old though.

1) Sick again

In short, either a stomach flu or a mild case of bacterial infection. Probably caught it from Terna or Ree when I met them on Tuesday… Anyway, I developed a rather high fever (not 40 degrees as my FB status proudly declared though – I discovered next day the thermometer was kinda faulty) and I spent the entire Tuesday night puking. As in, the entire night. Every 5 to 10 minutes, the most 20, getting up, running to the toilet, hurling vomit or air, and trudging back, still feeling like puking but having nothing left to puke. I probably blogged about it before, but that shit’s probably the worst feeling, ever. Thankfully it’s only the second or third time I’ve fallen sick this year, nothing like the JC days nightmare.

Anyway, this bout of sickness was very ill-timed (nice pun there) because the weeks before this I was doing nothing, the days after I am not doing much, but those very few days were supposed to be busy days for me. Wednesday I was supposed to meet Qinsheng, Yuxuan, Eileen and Jessamin to surprise Jesslyn for her birthday. And handball after that. Thursday I was supposed to take my IPPT, and Pinkies Xmas dinner. Friday, meet Junshyang. And in between do my long overdue shopping. So all my plans were wrecked.

2) Filming

But at least I didn’t fall sick before / on Monday and Tuesday, which I spent acting for a CTV production. Acting gay again, sigh. Apart from the fact that it’s getting a bit boring, I don’t really like people suspecting whether I’m really gay. It’s not that I like or dislike doing it, I do it because I’m good at it and it makes people laugh. But like I told anyone who would listen, this is the last time I’m acting gay for any film / video / play / whatever. Don’t know how many people think I’m gay already sigh how am I gonna attract my hot chicks this way? Anyway, doesn’t it occur to people that if I were gay I wouldn’t be purposely acting gay for a show? Hello?

It kinda reminded me of J1, when I acted gay for Campfire night and the Dramafeste crew wanted me to act gay for Dramafeste thereafter but I begged them to let me audition for emo Max instead and I got it. One thing I know – I definitely had much more fun playing Max than if I had done the gay role. So I considered asking for a switch with one of the guys but I realised my role had the most screen time among the guys. So being the attention-seeking asshole I am I decided to keep it. Haha.

Gripes about the gayness of the gay role aside, I sure had loads of fun. I miss acting, not that I’ve acted much in my life… but I really enjoyed it. The crew was fantastic, as were my fellow cast, especially Jolene whom I did most scenes with. She’s quite hilarious. I think at this point I’m ready to retract my comments about BE… about 3 posts down. Sure, they’re extremely friendly, but they are not fake, maybe except a few of them. I guess I’m slowly letting go of the VPH bitterness, coming to terms with it haha.

3) Results

Is as expected. C+ for Stats. B+ for Biz Law. A- for LTB. A-/A for CT. A/A+ for TWC. Means if not for Stats, my GPA would have been 3.6+ instead of a 3.3+. SIGH. Oh, and for the non-SMU readers, our GPA’s out of 4, not 5, haha. So to be perfectly honest, I guess 3.3+ is a decent GPA… except that I wanted much better, of course. But let’s be realistic here too. I didn’t expect myself to do much better either.

4) Friends

Am still drifting bit by bit from the Pinkies, and all other SMU friends. I want my old friends back ): Met Jinyang, Buan and Seng last weekend, and even though they’re my least close Gold Friends, they are still miles ahead of the new friends. A few billion miles. To think I was still considering demoting them to Silver Plus because I don’t meet them enough. At the least they can only be Gold Minus. Never Silver Plus. Actually I’m talking cock, they’re still as Gold as all my other Gold Friends. And now I’m starting to doubt if the Pinkies can ever be Gold Friends. There is a huge problem that I can’t exactly tell them in their faces, sigh.

5) My only xmas wish

Before I fell sick I would say my only wish is for my face to clear itself of pimples and acne and be smooth and shiny again. Really, the state of my face has been the cause of many depressed days and nights this year… I’ve tried countless facial washes and creams, mostly to no avail. To think there was a time I had such a flawless face I didn’t even wash with anything other than water! Really, look at my old photos on FB, you’ll get a shock. The JC days ones. Even the early army ones weren’t so bad! Sigh, it really reminds me never to take anything I have for granted. Hate my face now ):

Anyway, when I fell sick, I realised the most important thing is to be healthy. And now that I just recovered, I just wish my grandma would recover too (she caught it from me ) and nobody else, family and friends, catch it too.

6) End

So enough for today. I’ll come up with a New Year post soon, as always. Bye.