JAYDABEST

eeeyer. i expected myself to do badly, but not that bad. after all i thought i understood the concepts. but heck i shouldn’t bother myself about it and just chiong for the exams and ace and stuff.

today joseph passed to us the cds that contained a video that he spent 89745 days on. and all the pics and stuff yea. but i should just be brave and post everything up here. so the fact that we had practice on sunday got leaked out through this very blog.

stupid, stupid, stupid.

theres not much i can say now. if youre reading this, joseph, i know sorry cant help but its up to you to believe me when i say that im truly feeling guilty.

to the rest, a million apologies for letting the cat out of the bag despite swearing to secrecy afterwards. i just wasnt careful enough.

as for the problem with my mother, its not gone yet, but its slightly better. today we daoed each other on the way to my dental cos she kept insisting that i never play pool again. which is like ridiculous cos i only played liek less than 5 times in my entire life.  and she said i spend too much. which actually i feel rather guilty about.

shit im feeling guilty about too many things. academia, for not studying to my potential, relationships, with friends and family. and guilty to my own body. for not sleeping early even though i want to.

why, why liddat?

on a brighter note, benpoh is in hk now so he cant post my pantsdropping performance on youtube… nobody else will take the initiative so quickly like ben, that ass lol.

anyway, im gonna sleep after i finish this compre.

bye all.

My mother is seriously pissing me off. alright i know its my fault that i hvn been telling her much about all my academic stuff and have been sleeping late which both my parents absolutely abhor. BUT. when i stayed at kap to finish my maths with sean and joch just now, until 10, she got really pissed.

i didnt want to mention that the com was distracting me, but the truth is that mugging at a not so crowded kap is rather efficient. So? she didnt believe, and insists that i come back home early to start my work.

wheres the trust man wheres the trust? i know my parents are more lenient than quite a few of some other friends, but i absolutely can’t stand the fact that there is so little trust between my parents and i. now they want to go ptg this friday to see my tchrs and complain that i sleep late regularly, when the trigger is the fact that i slept at 3.30 2 nights ago to finish my CPK. IT IS BLOODY FRUSTRATING.

they think i dont wanna finish my work early, but its not as if im not trying.

i really detest the fucked up tone my mother uses on me. hello im not a bloody 5 yr old, i have reasons for doing any and everything and i have a life. so save me some space and more so, trust. i apologise for the f, but the heat inside me is seriously making me sick and disgusted with every single thing in this world.

and im having a mental block now so i shant continue the stupid useless ranting.

BYE, and thanks to everyone who thought my mediocre performance yesterday was good. i really appreciate everything (:

Ok, it’s confirmed that we’re gonna appeal for our project now.

C?

Im surprised we didnt get an A, not to mention a B or a C.

i dnt want to mention how much inconsistencies in the results there were. like how the upper sec and lower sec which had different judges were so different. for one, they had the co-ordinator melvin with them and he’s bound to be more knowledgable in the area than our noob judges. the lower sec so many more grps got in, and those who didnt mostly had B’s. Our grp? the upper sec almost all got C. and only 1 or 2 got in.

Tell me, what kind of shit is this? in fact shit is an understatement for our plight right now.

butbutbut on a lighter note, glenn poh is actually not that bad. went with him to kap for dinner and hes actually quite nice lah, just a bit irritating. and his online personality.

indian dance and drama isnt exactly going well. they’re adding moves and everybody is expecting too much for the drama i guess. PLEASE la everyone this is my first time, ben’s first time and probably dijie’s first time too. cut us some slack can. haha whatever im saying is not targeted at you “oneofthegirls”, unless you happen to be the one which is impossible cos i think i know who you are.

ah, sleep early tonight. edmund teo’s message hahahahah

KNS LA. PROJECT DIDNT GET IN.

i swear the results are tweaked. the slim groups, including us, seemed to us like the most zhai ones. before that we were guessing that most were sure to be pwned by ours. our quality was good, our quantity was also good, our effort was there. in fact this is the first time i’ve worked so hard for projects day.

we checked against the rubrics and made sure that we got the methodology and especially the triangulation part down. fattytay and the usuallynice woman kept picking on our minor minor details however. hello, we justified why we did what we did, and if we get one small terminalogy wrong penalise for fck?

“im surprised a sec 4 grp didnt explore the issue deeper blahblahcockcock”

like our dear mentor mentioned, it can very likely be due to tchr bias. i dunno if he had offended them, but all of our dear mentor’s grps flunked even though i thought the other grp did pretty well too. the common ground among us is that both our grps argued back to the judges, but they shut us up by insisting that we shouldn’t “start a forum discussion”

SCREW YOU OKAY.

whats the point of telling us all the shit when we cant even get into the finals? we did so much, so extensively researched and covered the topic, put in so much bloody effort. and in the end we get a fail.

one interesting fact to note: one of the coordinator’s grp, some crap that wasnt even as wellcovered as ours, one that didnt really have expert opinions, one that only has facts. They got in!

Surprised?

I think this stupid competition needs a big revamp. everything is too fucking inconsistent.

so there, more than half a year of hard work gone down the bloody drain. we didnt even get to show them our painstakingly created web report. the presentation was above expectations, at least i wasnt as nervous as i thought i would be.

everything seemed perfect, but the judges.

Thanks man, seriously THANKS.

but one lil thing made my day(:

i think im overcommitted la.

lets see, i currently have hrp, project, ptg presentation and indian dance! not to mention the sheer amount of hw each and every day.

im feeling more and more tired each day, i need my kopi. and sleep.

after this week it should be better.

for now just lemme brave through this shit.

screw indian dance.
wasted more than an hour waiting for ppl who didnt appear and spent it with an effing arrogant bastard who thinks hes king.

at least louis has the decency to apologise and it actually wasnt his fault la.

but then this whole thing is bloody screwed.

most of the ppl are not interested at all and the ONE whos so damn enthu is ganging up with the veebye. and the alien.

like glenn has said, this dance thing can be fun what. i still think tht its the ppl at fault.

okay screw the dance now if its gonna be sucky nth we can do since everybody’s hecking it. but hopefully the bloody drama will be drama enough to stun everyone(:

enough of indian dance.

made zhihao wait for me for close to 2 hrs when he has his ec3 to attend. damn guilty k.

anw after that ben and i went to coro to do our surveys.

quite boring although the ppl were all rather interesting.

then we went to lot 1.

the stupid dance is changed to sunday 9 am, and i predict like half the ppl will reach at 10 or sth. seriously la this whole thing is so damn disappointing.

when one storm clears another follows. why liddat?

i swear i always try to be nice.

but its always injustice after injustice.

friendship is just so superficial at times,

it takes a million yrs to build to orgasmic climax,

but like an orgasm, dies off much much faster and more easily than it comes.

aiyoyo

why, why liddat?

sth just occurred to me.

if we were living in ancient china, and was in the ‘ruling family of Shang’ (from wikipedia)
then wont we have names with like, zi behind our surnames?
like kongzi, mongzi, laozi, whatever sai zi

so i will be shen zi and save a lot of paper.
paul ong will be wang zi. prince wor.
daryl lee will be li zi. like pear.
sean poh will be bai zi like blank paper.
ben poh, unfortunately already is fu zi an so he will have no peace.
alan choo will be zhu zi… pigsson(:
ben chan will be zeng zi?????????
hazel zhuo will be a zhuo zi.
for chaiyi, chai zi doesnt sound nice so lets have yi zi. complements hazel much more.

OMG i think i cant get any lamer.
dont care, i need some form of escapism,
else i’ll think of tmr’s morning announcement again.

ah sian!
schoooolsucks fullstop

hazel, stop impersonating in fairyland can.  its like not very funny